i'm bringing awesome back!

2011-12-26T14:41:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS BLOG THAT HARDLY ANYBODY READS!

So basically, Christmas sucked ass this year.
Why do i even anticipate it in the first place anyway?
Sure, some time with the family, friends and maybe the boyfriend, sounds fine and dandy.
All year round, i wanted it to be perfect.
When it's finally here, and if it falls below perfect,
things seem to take a different direction.
I'm not hating on Christmas cos it's baby jesus' birthday.
Just saying that maybe i shouldn't have such high expectations of it.

Another thing that I've learnt this holiday is that,
maybe i have too much time on my hands these days,
that it has turned me into some kind of obsessive girlfriend.
Maybe i need to take step back and focus on being with myself for a change.
I'm too co-dependent for my own good.
It ain't healthy.
Why do i need other people to make me happy?
If i don't learn how to make myself happy, how is anyone supposed to do that for me?
Nobody really bothers if you're upset anyway.
It's being a burden to people.
They have better things to do.
Time to chin up and fight my own battles.
So yeah, through a bad experience, i've learned something.
Not bad.

On a side note:
I still love my boyfriend.
I'm sorry for being such a pain in the ass.
Thanks for dealing with this wreck.
Love you :)

2011-12-11T14:37:00.003+08:00

Decided to resurrect my dead, dead blog.
For the past 3 months, nothing much changed, i supposed?
I'm still as busy as ever.
Juggling what needs to be juggled.
The thing about this year is, it's passing extremely fast.
When i was younger, i used to wait forever for Christmas to come.
At this age, it comes faster than speed racer.

I do what i do best at the end of the year,
reflect about life, like an old grandmother on a rocking chair.
I'm very happy and very blissful with Sean.
I can proudly say that it is the most successful relationship that i had so far.
I love/hate that boy. Maybe more hate, but he makes it up for being adorable.
Relationship isn't a bed of roses, we do have our fights.
I'm just glad that we are able to solve them and still go back to normal after that.
Love you swine lord.

Kinda glad i met the friends i have in RP now.
Though i only known them for a few months,
they have been there for me in quite a few situations and occasions.
Heck, we have already been through some drama together.
Very good.

Even though i meet new people and all,
i still miss my old ones.
Especially Cecilia and Rima, they were my other soul mates.
I miss having them in the same class as me, going through shit in school together.
But now, ugh, i don't even get to see them and i hardly talk to them.
Miss them so badly.

And a final note: I wish Christmas would last all year long.
The carols, the food, the drinks, the decorations, the company.
I LOVE ALL OF IT!
MERRY CHRISTMAS ONE AND ALL!

2011-09-21T01:56:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend always hating on other people's blog.

Gets me worried about mine.

QUICK, SOMEBODY GIVE ME A CRASH COURSE ON HOW TO MAKE MY BLOG INTERESTING!

FASTER, FASTER!

He has a blog too.

His feels like a soccer forum, filled with updates about scores and players.

So, ALL SPURS FANS OUT THERE, FOR MORE UPDATES,

PLEASE LOG ONTO SPILLEDVENOM.WORDPRESS.COM

I'm so lame, it must be the night.

Things to look forward to/or not:

- 4 more days to my 11th month (which means, 1 month and 4 days to our first year!)

-14 more days to school reopening (look at the amount of fucks i give, whoops, no surprise... none!)

-2 more days to my UT results (don't know how to react to this actually)

-5 more days to the DCID camp (which i'm not going, cos i hate camps and i can't be bothered. [and Sean would say, "wah, rebel now ah?"] and i am.)

But this i know for sure, i still got eyes for you,

2011-09-21T01:32:00.003+08:00

Fucking annoyed with technology.

Well, at least for my school's technology.

"A paperless learning system"

Just shove a sock in it.

So what happens if my laptop crashed on me one fine day and i have to go to school the next day?

Am i supposed to borrow the laptop from the school till i buy a new laptop?

What if i'm poor?

The school's gonna buy one for me?

In my dreams i supposed?

Why can't it be like other normal schools?

Something more efficient and reliable like books?

Pen? paper? learning notes?

I bet by the end of their poly life,

My school students all suffer from myopia because of the constant use of the computer.

What pisses me off so much is that when i want tot get my laptop system fixed,

I have to go to the freaking IT help desk in school.

IN FUCKING WOODLANDS.

To go get it fixed.

I usually can get normal people to do it for me, but noooo,

I have to get fucking school people to help me out!

Dumbfucks.

2011-08-11T00:15:00.003+08:00

One thing that I've really got to learn about myself.

STOP WALLOWING IN SELF-PITY.

No one really cares when you're being pathetic.

So I might as well chin up and stiffen up that upper lip.

Cos, no one is gonna be there to fight my battles for me.

Sympathy doesn't make things easier.

2011-08-07T21:36:00.002+08:00

BALANCE

I find that my life depends on and revolves around this magical word.
24 hours in a day, 7 days in a week is simply not enough anymore.
I don't know how well I'm handling things.
Sure, i can stop working and continue feeding off of my parents or
my adamant boyfriend would want to attempt to support me,
but i guess I'm too independent to do so.
So I'm juggling, work, school, boyfriend, family, KC friends, RP friends, MDIS friends...
Somebody give me a fucking medal already.

Even so, i still feel like,
i have not accomplished enough.
I don't know.

Dear god,
cut me some slack why don't you?
I'll be good from now on.

2011-08-07T21:30:00.002+08:00

All i can say is,
WHY GABEY BABY?! WHY?!

Then again, Sean Yeo Zhenyu is so damn happy that my hopes of marrying Gabe are dashed.
HAPPY NOW? I ADMIT DEFEAT.

Have to find a cure for this obsession.
My oh my.

You know you just got one life.

2011-07-03T23:44:00.005+08:00

NIGHT SHADES!
COBRA STARSHIP'S NEW ALBUM.
MUST HAVE... MAJOR WANT... CAN'T MAINTAIN...

Which only means, more of my baby.
Okay second baby, before i get hell from Mr S.A.Tan himself.
But thennnn, my asshole classmate said he looks like this guy

Ted mosby from How I Met Your Mother.

HELL NOOOOOOO.
Burst my fucking bubble. Dang it.

PLEASE LAUNCH THE ALBUM ALREADY!
SHIVERING IN ANTICIPATION.

What i've been missing in my life, what i've been dreaming of. You'll be that guy.

2011-05-09T00:18:00.003+08:00

Why is it that at the age of 19 I'm still treated like as though I'm only 9?

Why is that other people are allowed to travel with their friends and I can't cos it's deemed 'dangerous'?

The thing is, EVERYWHERE IS DANGEROUS!

Singapore is dangerous too.

You people care for my safety, okay, fair enough.

Does this mean that parents that allow their child to travel overseas with their friends don't care about their safety?

I'm pretty sure that I'll allow my child to have a life when she turns 19.

Provided that she texts back to Singapore every few hours just so i know she's safe.

WHICH I AGREED TO DO, BUT YOU PEOPLE STILL GAVE ME NO LEEWAY.

So be it, I'll never be able to travel alone till I'm fucking married.

At least i had my grandma and auntie that agreed to let me go and is on my side about this.

I'm sorry, but I'm never gonna be able to agree with you people on this perspective.

Fuck this.

2011-02-23T22:46:00.002+08:00

Some people just have it better than others.

And others will just have to work a little harder than the rest.

Somehow or another, i still believe that things will turn out for the better.

Not now, maybe in the future.

Right at this moment, i just want to give thanks for all that i have.

It's not much, but it's something.

I have to believe that what little things i have now, it's enough.

'Jealousy's the cousin of greed.'

I find myself constantly comparing and being envious of others.

I should really go trigger happy on myself with my imaginary rifle.

I wanna be contented. REALLY contented with what i have.

Living in a world with materialistic wants, makes happiness very complex.

Nobody said life was going to be easy.

2011-01-16T16:15:00.002+08:00

Let's just face it,

I will never know how successful I'll be in the future,

nor do i know if the path i chose would be the right one for me.

And so, after all that consideration,

I'm just gonna play it by ear.

Let life decide what it wants to do with me.

Also because 90% of the time, people do not end up doing what they studied.

In this new environment, new education,

i just hope it doesn't bite me in the ass.

Please let it be extremely kind to me.

But well, even if i don't like it, I'm going to give it my all this time round.

Survive poly the next 3 years.

Okay, so about O's result.

It ain't good, neither is it bad.

Of course i could have done better,

but in all honesty, i was already motherfreaking happy that i passed my math.

This chapter of life is finally done and closed.

I'm pretty sure that almost everyone is being succumbed to society's standards.

Just today, i told these two primary 6 girls my points for O's,

and where I'm headed.

They said, "that's baaaad." (which isn't wrong, mind you)

These are my two favourite primary 6 girls and i adore them,

but their perception of what's successful is only when you can get into a JC.

These are the kids of today who have been brain washed by society.

It's good these kids has high hopes and goals, and god bless them, I'm sure they'll end up being very successful in the future.

But all I'm saying is, why so narrow minded?

I refuse to be sucked into the society's standards.

I'm setting my own standard, and yes, I'll always be average.

I'm happy being average, it's just gonna be my own expectations from now on.

My boyfriend is haunting me with my past.

But then it god me thinking, my blog was really amusing in the past.

It used to be about my daily events.

The silliness and all its glory.

Now as i grow older, I'm becoming boring!

All these seriousness is depressing, and who the hell bothers to read such a long ass post?

Growing up, you suck.

Yours sincerely, woman who is living in denial.

Og agus saor go deo (live forever young and free)

2011-01-05T13:46:00.002+08:00

HAHA. I laughed so hard at this.

In other news...

To simply put it, SAME SHIT, DIFFERENT YEAR.

But still, HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!
My new year resolutions is...

to have no resolutions.

Seriously, all i want to do is just survive this year.

Learn as much as possible.

Have as much fun as i possibly could.

2010 was one hell of a ride,

new school, new friends, new experiences for old and dear friends,

new knowledge at my job, lost and found love, new memories.

It wasn't all that bad, neither was it exactly fantastic.

Just glad that from all that, I've grown.

Better, maybe?

Another year of possibilities.

Some friendships are worthy of being saved, but both parties are too arrogant or ignorant to resolve any animosity.

And so i conclude, so be it.

Then there are other friendships that i feel, are not worthy of being saved.

Friends yes, back to the way we were, no way in hell.

You clearly chose the path you wanna live, and so did i.

But, yeah, MOVING ON~

Take a bite of my heart tonight.

2010-12-26T00:43:00.002+08:00

Yeah, i think we all need it sometimes...

ANNNNNND, MERRY CHRISTMAS PARTY PEOPLE!

PEACE ON EARTH, GOODWILL TO ALL!

My Christmas this year can only be described in one word.

AWESOME!

I usually hate special occasions cos, it's pretty much suck ass.

This year i had all i can ever asked for.

Mass with family, Christmas eve with mi amor, gifts exchange with darlings, drinking session at godparent's place, lunch and dinner with relatives.

Good company. Good food. Good drinks. Good presents.

Wad.up.

Come to think of it, i waited so damn long for Christmas to arrive,

and in a blink of an eye, it's gone.

Then 2011 comes along and here we go all over again.

Frankly, I'm both excited and scared for 2011.

I don't know what obstacles I'm gonna face for next year.

But yet, I'm dying to find out.

Embrace life, take a dive into all the conundrums that's coming your way.

2010 can suck it. 2011, BRING IT.

I guess living in the moment isn't so bad.

I usually like to see the bigger picture.

But, I'm getting too old and too tired for that.

It's in that moment that you truly enjoy yourself without the doubts about our past and worries for the future.

In that moment, all we have is you and i.

I'm completely contented with that.

I wanna forget about all that animosity in me.

New year, new start.

There's a million guys around but i don't see no one but you.

2010-12-05T22:43:00.003+08:00

FOR ALL DOG LOVERS OR HARRY POTTER FANS OUT THERE,

this is for you.

Officially the cutest dog ever! Haha.

There's this girl who was blind,

and because of her disability, she begin to avoid everyone around her.

Except her loving boy friend,

who was there for her all along.

Then the girl told him that if she could see the world, she'll marry him.

One day, she finally had a donor for her eyes.

But once she could see, she realised that her boy friend was blind.

Being able to now see the world, she can't look past her boy friend's disability,

and so, she left him.

One day, the guy wrote her a letter, saying:

"My dear, take care of those eyes that you've received.

For before it was yours, they were mine."

Yeah, awwww. Just to prove that i was listening during mass.

He's that guy who:

Takes up Spanish, just because i think it's a sexy language.

Learns the words to my favourite song.

Calls me every morning whenever i'm doing opening, so that i won't get up late.

Thinks that my groggy morning voice is sexy.

Dedicated a song on the radio to me, the first day we're together.

Refuse to let go of my hand even though it made his fingers numb.

Thinks that my blurness is adorable.

Willing to spend so much money on his phone bill due to all the calls he makes to me.

Lets me lean on his chest, even though it tickles him.

Lets me know how much i mean to him, everyday.

Don't allow me to think that i have issues, because he thinks I'm perfect the way i am.

Gives in to me almost every time.

He's all that and many more,

Yeaaah, I'm just lucky i guess.

How's it like to be my kryptonite?

2010-12-01T22:12:00.003+08:00

Diabolical barbie ftw. Hahaha.

EXACTLY ONE WEEK TO MY FIRST YEAR IN STARBUCKS.

Hell yeaaaaaaah.

Everybody that help me through this bittersweet journey has been wonderful.

Partners that have been there before me, are gone.

From a blur-like-hell newly formed barista, to what i have become today...

like, you know, still blur?

Although i have numerous things to complain about the drudgery,

It changed my life, in a way or another.

I would never have been close to my sister, if not for work.

I would never made so many new friends, including regulars, if not for Starbucks.

It has been a very fruitful experience too,

being involved in the Starbucks amazing race, the coffee ambassador's cup,

'bare your sole' event, the upcoming salvation army open house and i believe many, many more to come.

Just wonder how long more would i still be in the system.

LIFE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE PERFECT, IT JUST HAVE TO BE LIVED.

I can go on endlessly about how life sucks.

Buuuuut, even though it may not be ideal, i feel like it's pretty awesome right now.

Taking a step back and looking at the big picture.

Family, friends, boyfriend, work, my new chamomile tea from starbucks.

Yeap, fan-freaking-tastic.

OR it's the lack of sleep that's getting to me.

Oh well.

I NEED TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS, I MISS THEM SO MUCH, I WANT TO SCREAAAAAM.

I freaking love you.

2010-11-28T17:56:00.004+08:00

Yeap, my very own iron man.

The thing about my boyfriend is that,

He's one hell of a weird fella.

Buuuut, heh, he never fails to amaze me with every long late night conversations we have.

One advantage of being good friends before going into a relationship is,

you know all his flaws, you already have that perception in mind of how he is.

Therefore, you don't have that high of an expectation.

And when he does something out of the ordinary for you.

The feeling is blown way out of proportions.

Like all normal relationships, sure as hell we're gonna have fights.

Cos, both of us can be quite mentally unsound.

But i only have one thing in mind baby,

YOU CAN BE SICK, I'LL BE NASTY, BUT SOMETIMES IT'S JUST MORE FUN TO FIGHT.

I just won't settle for normal anymore, cos I'm in love with all your dangers.

2010-11-21T22:07:00.003+08:00

SO FOR THOSE OF YOU FALLING IN LOVE, KEEP IT KIND, KEEP IT GOOD, KEEP IT RIGHT.

PUT YOURSELF IN THE MIDST OF DANGER, BUT KEEP ONE EYE OPEN AT NIGHT.

In a more positive note,

Found this:

GODDDD, I MAKE ONE HELL OF A...

lousy person. I'm sorry.

2010-11-21T15:22:00.002+08:00

My thoughts have been shrouded by a million uncertainties.

And that has affected my original state of mind.

Like you know, my sanity?

I'm not one who likes to complain and make a big deal out of things.

Cos really, i find it annoying and pointless.

But, of course like any other normal girls, i have insecurities.

And sometimes, i wish you could read minds.

Which i don't think you can.

It's good that you don't anyway, cos it'll be quite freaky.
Wouldn't life be easier if there were no expectations?

So that you can save yourself from the endless disappointment that comes along with it.

I've come to realised and have come to terms with the fact that,

I'm not truly happy with what i have.

And I'm sure that, that happens to the majority.

And when that happens, comes jealousy and the endless comparisons.

It's like slowly committing mental suicide you know.

Disintegrating your soul.

But, you can't help it.

I solve most of my problems, but in this issue, i can't seem to cure.

I know all the basic stuff, "think about others, the people who are in more sorry plight than you."

It helps a little, but whenever i turn around, i see people who has it all.

Especially when it brings out psychological scars that dated way back when i was a kid.

Time to seek help?

My confidence is leaving me on my own.

2010-11-14T18:15:00.002+08:00

WHY IS EVERYBODY GETTING TUMBLR NOWWWWW?

I mean, yeah, it's way less troublesome and not much thinking is required.

Pictures do say a thousand words and even Gabe Saporta has tumblr.

But I'm just gonna stick to this old-school way of expressing my feelings.

Cos, I'm cool like that. Plus, I've been blogging for 4 years now.

Pathetic as this blog is, it holds a certain level of awesomeness to me.

Once again I'm back on this emotional roller-coaster ride.

Where the slightest comment or gesture could set off a ticking time bomb.

Even if you're not those jealous or sensitive type, that could all change.

But, he makes everyday less mundane,

and even on the worst days, he is able to make me smile.

Sure, it is gonna be pretty dysfunctional, cos we're like India and China.

And no way in hell did we see this coming, despite all the warnings.

Ha, but so far, so good.

I'm just glad he came into my life.

However, I'm trying damn hard not to lose my head in this relationship.

I don't wanna be one of those psychotic bitch from hell that goes berserk over something minuscule and insignificant.

Let's just hope everything works out fine.

Amen.

Here we go all over again.

2010-11-06T20:17:00.005+08:00

AIM: TO REVIVE MY DEAD BLOG!

I know i promise that this post would be an awesomely epic one,

but I'm pretty drowsy on panadol, so I'll try.

FIRST UP: MY MOTHERFREAKING 18TH BIRTHDAY!

TIMBRE @OLD SCHOOL BABEH.

An evening of good food, good drinks and awesome company.

Here's some of my darlings that celebrated with me.

Thanks for coming out again you guys.

LOVE YA'LL DEEEEEP, DEEP.

The band that played that night.

Their superstar shot.

Polaroid pictures FTW.

Hey bartender, 2 sex on the beach and a monstar please.

Can't forget my frozen margarita. What a chick drink. Gotta get me some vodka on the rocks.

A drunkard picture of me on the envelope of my b'day gift from the babes. THANKS AH.

RSC. LOVE THEM.

Husband for 2 years and counting. Hahaha.

My other 2 darlings, Wendy and Michelle Tan.

How can the both of us not have an unglam photo?

And a pretty shot of us. We're not that retarded. We have our moments.

So my life hasn't been all that exciting, cos of exams and all.

But so many things had happened in this one month.

New work politics, and it seems like everybody is getting on everybody else's nerves.

I'm still pretty neutral about everything, cos my motto in life is really less drama to avoid any trauma.

My training coach when i first joined Starbucks has just quit for NS.

I am now approaching my first year in the system.

I've got my own regular customers in the morning.

Got to know some of my eye candies *winks*.

Met a few unreasonable, 'burn in hell' customers also.

I have an ongoing love-hate relationship with my job.

You were someone i had a bad first impression of.

The one who always bicker with me about everything.

The one who suffered bipolar and ignored me most of the time.

The one who i cursed to 'burn in hell' the most.

But you turned out to be someone i can't seem to do without.

You make me feel special in ways i can't comprehend.

Most importantly, you make me smile.

Thanks for being my favourite corrupted nerd.

I'm loving angels instead (;

2010-10-15T19:52:00.002+08:00

Okay, LISTEN HERE WISE GUY!
I WAS ABOUT TO SHOOT A WHOLE LOT OF PROFANITIES AT YOU,
LIKE HOW YOU DID TO ME.
But I decided not to.
Cos, I am sorry that I took everything for granted in the past.
I know I was one hell of a mean bitch to you.
Come to think of it, I never really knew how to treasure people.
I was pretty self-centred and nonchalant.
If you're pissed that I deleted you off facebook, I understand.
Honestly, facebook don't mean anything. You still have my number.
I don't hate you and hopefully you don't to.
You moved on with your life and so did I.
I no longer wanna be right all the time.
See, I've grown, buuut you probably don't think so.
This anger is meaningless.
Just thought that you need me out of your life to make room for better friends.
Which you deserve.
Have a good life man.

2010-10-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

In the past 4 years, i have never truly given myself the time of day being alone.

I'm constantly going through the motions of hooking up or breaking up.

I forgot how happy i was, before i was stuck in that meaningless vicious cycle.

I was once at peace with myself, being single.

I want to find that peace again.

Besides, being alone isn't a form of weakness.

It's a form of empowerment... As i see it anyway.

Aloneness, "is less in danger of being overcome by the cliches of society.

It is more possible for her to listen to her inner self."

POP THE CHAMPAGNE! I'M TURNING 18 BITCHES!

I'm finally legal!

And I'm saying it as though waiting for 18 years is long.

But truth be told, it feels freaking fast!

I don't wanna grow up so soon.

Ever heard the phrase, "you never truly live until you hit 18"?

What it really means is,

"Yo newbie, congrats! You are now old enough to take on adult responsibilities and yes, it's not gonna be easy and it will make life 10 times worse for you. No, mommy and daddy can no longer decide for you. Fun? HA. You have got lots to learn. SUCKAAAA."

Okay, i guess you will have fun. Depends on how you live your life.

BUT, that's when fun is redefined.

1. Kids thinks toys are fun. Adults, you say toys and it automatically becomes dirty.

2. Kids thinks playgrounds are fun. Adults, clubs and pubs becomes a way of life.

3. Kids, soft drinks used to be an enjoyment. Adults, they prolly would prefer it mixed with vodka.

4. Kid, wearing their favourite sun dress would make them feel like the prettiest girl on earth.

Adults, the perfect dress+make up+perfect hair+mani/pedi+shoes to die for.

To sum it up, true enjoyment are either illegal/sinful/unhealthy.

That's how screwed up society is.

Of course as i grow older, i grow wiser.

And I'm anticipating to know what the future holds for me.

Plus, i get the choice of growing older, but not necessarily growing up.

So yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

Timbre, you better have a table for me this Saturday!

I'm still alive, but I'm barely breathing.

2010-10-03T16:28:00.002+08:00

Subject: DE-CLUTTERING MY LIFE.

Basically, I'm clearing my past to make room for my future.

I'm deleting old photos that means nothing now, throwing away old stuff, deleting strangers from facebook.

I mean, why should i care about people that obviously don't bother to give a damn about me?

So sick of being stuck in the past and unable to let go and move on with my life.

I am destined for greatness, and nostalgia is being a bitch and dragging me down.

"It’s only human for us to want to keep a box of memories and pictures and things,

and open them back up to have them transport us to that place we were when they were taken.

But – and I know this is really fucked up—but I think when you do that,

it makes you leave your emotions in the past and precludes you from truly immersing yourself in the present.

I think that’s why people get old:

Because they’ve left pieces of themselves behind.

They forget how to be young because they have become nostalgic about their youth."

-Gabriel Saporta

Goodbye past, i no longer like you. So, BE GONE!

You see, I've changed and I'll definitely keep on changing, and hopefully for the better.

I need to forget the bad AND good memories,

so that i would be open to new experiences, without judging today's happiness, according to past happiness.

I trust that all my homies will be creating new memories with utmost awesomeness (:

Stop, rewind, delete, continue being awesome.

2010-09-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

We were once so close, but you turned out to be one hell of a grade A, asshole.

I'm just disappointed that you used me like that.

Thought everything could be like it was, but you proven that it was very much impossible.

Just live your life and I'll live mine. Leave me alone.

Note to self: People will definitely bound to disappoint you someday. Brace yourself kid.

I think I'm in that point in life where i just can't be bothered anymore.

It's like everything is just, "okay, whatever it is".

I don't anticipate things as much as i used to.

I feel like if i care too much, the more I'm gonna be let down.

However, so far, it's not doing me any good.

I feel like a walking zombie this way.

I desperately need something worth fighting for.

I love today.

It's nice to hang with the girls today.

Especially with our baju kurung.

Even though I don't know how to be ladylike in it.

Pictures please Rima? Or else i curse you to become a cockroach.

Muahahahaha.

Why do we spend money that we don't have, to get stuff we don't need,

to impress people who don't care?

2010-08-18T23:48:00.003+08:00

Humans, perfectly imperfect.

I may never be as pretty or smart as some other girls out there.

I may never be taller than i am now. (Genetically proven)

I will never have a body like super models.

I will never be the most success-driven person you'll find out there.

I will never have a normal family.

I will never be the most interesting person in the world.

I may never be a trendsetter.

I may never be one of those girly girls.

I may never be able to have the best temper.

I will never have the best complexion.

I will never be the most athletic girl. EVER.

BUT, one thing is for sure, I will never be anyone other than me.

Looks like the tables has turned on me huh.

There's no answer and it's best i don't know,

because, you needed somebody and i was just conveniently there?

Ha, oh, the irony.

Why won't you answer me? The silence is slowly killing me.

2010-08-14T02:25:00.003+08:00

I know it's been one hell of a long time.

And yes, i also know that you and i are now just mere acquaintances.

Believe me, you are long out of my system.

But i decided to waste a little of my time talking about you.

I was wondering,

WHY IN THE WORLD DID I FALL FOR YOU IN THE PAST?!

After so long of being blinded by love or lack thereof,

I really thought you were better than what you really are.

However, just today joey was just asking me,

"Sam, why did you get together with *insert name here* in the first place?"

I tried answering and found that i couldn't.

It's like breaking a glass that blocking me from the truth.

I can see it but i just didn't realise.

*Hears glass shattering*

Was i searching and you were just conveniently there or what?

Or was i really in love with you that your flaws became non-existence.

You belittled me all this while,

i thought you were better than me.

But guess what my dear, I'M BETTER THAN YOU.

And yes, i can do with much better.

Quite redundant to say this now after so long, but i just had to.

For all heart-broken people out there,

please know what are you heart-broken about and if that person is worth all that.

Or else, you end up wasting so much of your time.

Time that you can't get back and you will regret.

Badly.

You never needed any help, you sold me out to save yourself.

2010-08-05T22:41:00.003+08:00

And i mean it in a good way this time.

Or maybe it's just us.

Nice hanging with you again Conceicao.

Brought back lots of good memories.

You're still as retarded as ever.

Thanks for bringing out the girl that i was 4 years ago.

The endless giggles, the smiles that never comes off and the dances you make me do in public.

I thought i lost that side of me and make me realise that i missed being all that.

Till next time then, bestfriend.

As we grow older, life becomes less amusing.

I don't give a damn, if anyone gives a damn.

2010-07-30T21:51:00.002+08:00

YAWN.

This cat says it all.

My life is such a bore-fest.

So boring that it's slowly killing my soul.

I'm reading other people's blog.

And man, oh, man, they are having the time of their lives.

Touring the world, UK, Europe, US...

Where have i been? Malaysia?

Some people are born into more fortunate families than others,

able to afford all sorts of gadgets, Gucci, prada, channel...

But my life is just one vicious cycle.

I work one day, go to school on another.

Whatever money i earn that month is the money that's gonna lasts me that month.

I don't go anywhere special, don't get anything extravagant, never doing anything spectacular.

Is this the life i'm gonna lead for the next few years?

I want to do something exciting, something different, something meaningful.

At least something that i would remember for life.

My thirst for excitement is so limited in this minute country of mine.

Someone please take me to a place far, far away?

I get it that all my wants are materialistic.

And yes, i know stuff like that will fade away and it won't matter when push comes to shove.

What matters are the company of family and friends.

But c'mon, who doesn't want all that?

And to all those who are really having the time of your lives,

treasure it while it lasts.

Remember, happiness is ephemeral.

I have so much to day but you're so far away.

2010-07-23T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hey there baby,

haven't seen you in awhile.

Sorry I've been neglecting you.

Thought about you today, and reheard all your songs.

I also re-watched videos of you over and over again.

Saw the new video from your new album 'nightmare'.

You still look mighty fine or even better.

Even if the video is a bit morbid.

When are you coming back to Singapore?

Missing you motherfreaking badly.

XOXO, Sam.

HAHAHAHA.

Just thought that my blog needs to be uplifted every now and then.

Or it will turn into some Dr.Phil/Oprah Winfrey kinda blog.

But seriously, i figuratively melt whenever i see him sing.

Swooning all over the dang place.

His voice is immaculate i tell you.

His wife is one lucky bitch.

She has a secret.

She knows she has to reveal it someday.

She isn't proud of what she had done.

She knows he has the right to know.

It's only fair.

She ponders about how she's going to bring herself to say it.

This secret that might jeopardize whatever that has been built,

and could crumble within minutes.

So she's still waiting for the right moment.

Waiting, thinking, regretting...

To reminisce won't bring you back, just look ahead and hold on tight.

2010-07-19T10:26:00.004+08:00

[Coffee] is a social binder, a warmer of tongues, a soberer of minds, a stimulant of wit, a foiler of sleep if you want it so.
From roadside mugs to the classic Demi-tasse, it is the perfect democrat.
Found this phrase in an email from one of the OM from HQ.
I'm not a big fan of coffee, but this is nicely said.
This is for all coffee drinkers out there.
Do you agree that going to your favourite coffee house,
is not just all about the drinks, but about the experience that place gives you.
So don't be so quick to judge without trying other branches first.
But I'm just gonna be bias and say, starbucks coffee FTFW.

Life tends to pick you up and then knock you down time and time again.
But if you intend to stay down and out.
That will just make you the ultimate loser.
What bugs me is the unpredictability of life.
Plus the indecisiveness in me.
The phrase, 'what if'' seem to appear in my mind a lot more than usual.
What if, I don't want to continue working anymore?
What if, I don't want to go into a relationship?
What if, I can't let go of my past?
What if, I'm sick of the life I'm living?
I just want to be certain about things.
Ugh, this is what happens when you think too much.
Make you seem like you are pms-ing everyday.
Life's a mothereffing bitch.

Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking about tomorrow.

2010-06-24T00:11:00.002+08:00

Nobody really wants to listen to your sad life stories

and seeing yourself wallowing in self-pity.

So why do you still put up with it?

Move on and embrace the happier stories.

I am pissed off with dictionaries.

What's the use of finding the definition of a word when they explained it with other

bombastic terms?

It just creates the never ending cycle of finding the definition of words.

For example, I was searching for the meaning of 'innuendo'.

The definition is: "an indirect intimation about a person or thing,

especially of a disparaging or a derogatory nature."

Like, what.the.fuck right?

I've been in MDIS for 5 months now.

Met all sorts of people from different countries, races and age.

With very different life stories to share.

And even though we only see each other once a week,

I've grown attached to these people.

All the pool, movies, dinner and starbucks outings.

Not to forget all the heartfelt talks in between.

I never thought that i would be so thankful to find people like you guys.

Sad to say but, we only have less than 4 months together in school.

Let's just make it count guys.

Like how the saying goes, "what matters is not the quantity, but the quality."

I guess that applies to friends too.

You guys are definitely quality friends.

Phase one, cleared. Time to move on to phase two.

I think we'll do it pretty well (:

I'm standing up, I'm gonna face my demons.

2010-05-30T03:01:00.009+08:00

The last thing I need right now is to see your face again.
But amidst the massive crowd I spotted you coincidentally.
A wave of nostalgia washed over me.
I didn't have the heart to approach you.
Talking to you again would just be a major awkward moment.
So I just let you do your thing, and I'll do mine.
The day came to an end and as I lay down my head in bed,
I thought I could get you out of my head with better thoughts,
But you had to text me.
So I acted as though everything was normal, like you never had 'her'.
But of course I was absolutely wary about how I talk to you and
fully aware of what your status is now.
I'm not gonna lie to myself, I'm bigger than that.
I noticed that you tried your best to talk to me as per normal too.
Joking and poking fun.
Boy, you ain't lying to no one. Not even yourself.
When the conversation was over, I stayed awake for awhile longer thinking about, 'what's next?'
i figured that I don't hate you, you weren't important enough for me to feel anything bad towards you.
I'll just let bygones be bygones.
But I am erasing memories of us, and I know you did too.
Let's start over as just normal friends, I wouldn't want anything more to do with you.

Why am I searching, when I already know that you are the one for me long ago?
You were there for me all along after my last breakup.
I fell for you instantly after and we had some good moments together.
The constant flirting and random hook-ups.
It died off at times but always seem to rekindle itself.
I always thought that that was never enough though.
So i find myself searching once again to fill that emptiness.
But after so many wrong doors that I've opened, I figured that you're still the best for me.
Boy, you're so extremely normal that i think your kind is extinct.
I would like to think that you're different than other guys.
Please let my theory be proven.
I am terrified of commitments cos I'm afraid that I can't follow through of what I have started.
But from now on, I'm not letting you out of my sight.
You're such a gem, I'm treasuring you for life.

2010-05-23T18:04:00.002+08:00

"Are you happy with your life?"

"Yeah, pretty much."

"Okay, you can continue lying to yourself."

"No really, there's nothing much to complain about."

Yeah, I've come to realised that i have everything that i need in my life.

I just got to appreciate those things.

Which is my key to happiness.

It's not nice to lead a girl on and just leave her hanging there,

till one day you finally tell her the awful truth that you like someone else,

and is already attached,

THROUGH THE GODDAMN INTERNET.

To be specific, Facebook statuses.

It's just not cool man.

The girl feels like she's being played, for goodness sake.

Well, thanks for making her feel like some idiot.

Anticipating for nothing.

Congrats, you've accomplished the tittle, 'jerk for life'.

You can flee with your wounds just in time,

or lie there as he feeds.

Watching yourself rip to shreds,

and laughing as you plead.

2010-05-19T21:56:00.002+08:00

I need to disappear for awhile.

Maybe not disappear, more like a self-vacation.

I need to destress.

I want to escape from it all.

I don't want to think about school,

or work,

and other personal stuff.

Just my backpack, passport and a wad of money.

And I'm going to do it alone with no form of communication whatsoever.

I've been stressing about unnecessary things,

worried for the future,

thinking too much about my past.

It's all been dragging me down.

I want to go somewhere, where nobody knows me.

Open my eyes to a world that i have never seen before.

Thinking about then and there.

Besides that, i want to think about nothing at all.

I got to find that peace and clarity in me again.

What is up with friends telling each other,

"you only talk to me when you need somebody."

This statement is very silly.

You feel like you're being used and you're not appreciated.

But c'mon, think about it,

at least you're important to that person enough for her to come to you when

she needs somebody.

Then just be there for her if you are a true friend.

To me, the definition of a true friend is when,

you don't see each other for months, but when you get to meet up,

you guys can still talk like you're best friends.

As though nothing has changed.

Even if you meet new people out there, whom you can click with,

or in a new environment which you have become comfortable with.

You'll never forget the person and make it a point

to talk to them every once in awhile.

I know i have a tendency to disappear socially myself.

Not replying texts, never meeting up, never answer calls.

But for people who know me well enough,

would still love me despite that.

If you don't, then I'm sorry, you're just another phase in my life.

Friends come and go.

As time goes by, you'll discover who are your true friends.

Those that are readily here for me now,

would be the ones at my wedding in the future.

I need a moment cause I've dragged myself too thin.

We all need a moment in our lives.

Works hard, the days are long

and that's just where it begins.

Tension has had us all this time.

2010-05-14T00:01:00.003+08:00

So, my old boss decided to bring his son to new Zealand to see sheep.
And I got a temporary new boss from airport transit.
He's fierce like hell and I'm scared of him like hell.
But I figured that he's really funny as well.
He told most of my customers that I was flirting with him.
Told this regular (Max) that I was checking him out.
He keeps flirting with Caucasian women and claiming to be his 'girlfriends'.
He said he was the 'hot stuff' at airport.
He's hilarious, but he keeps saying he wanna break my neck into 9 pieces.
I'm still keeping him at bay. To be safe. Haha.

I feel like I'm gonna develop hernia anytime soon.
All the heavy stuff I'm carrying at work on such a small build body of mine.
Customers sometimes feel for me.
I was clearing trash and it was pretty heavy,
The customer asked if I needed any help.
And said that the trash looks bigger than me.
And that moment, I feel so small.
Ah screw it, miniscule!
I've gotta start taking steroids or something.
And now, 3 openings in a row has caused extreme
exhaustion that my muscles refuse to cooperate with me.
They are on strike.
Hang in there, pay day is in 2 weeks.
2.MORE.WEEKS.

I guess this week is just not good.
In fact, if I think about it, it's been a nightmare.
3 openings in a week, science mid year exam,
lost my phone, got scolded by my dad for it,
but found it, but my mom got to go all the way to
tanjong pagar to collect it. So I got scolded for that.
Scalded my hand with hot oil, which disfigured my
once flawless hand. Now there's this one red spot which
resembles a birth-mark. IT WON'T GO AWAY!
And this week have not even ended yet.
Someone has put a curse on me. I swear.

We've all been more than eager to sin,
but it feels alright till we pay the price.

2010-05-02T23:46:00.003+08:00

HEYYY RIMA AMALIYAH BASRI!

It's because you're one of my favourite girls in the world.

And to celebrate 5 and a half years of good and very violent friendship,

I'm dedicating one whole blog post to you on your birthday!

YES, I KNOW I'M AN AWESOME FRIEND (:

As a few KCians embarked on a journey of a really dysfunctional friendship,

Considering how we are all so very talented in our own way.

But since this is about you, let's just talk about what you did.

You with your violent streak and random outburst of nonsensical ways.

Hitting everybody around you or sometimes only me.

Let's recall:

-You broke our classroom door handle.

- You threw a pair of scissors at me.

- You 'wrestled' with me from the back to the front of the classroom.

- You tried to drown Cecilia at Wild Wild Wet.

- You tried to kill Cecilia and I, while defending yourself from Coco.

And then there's the nonsensical part:

- You made me run for the bus while you stroll slowly behind.

- You pretend you understand what is being explained, but you really don't.

- Your lioness burp is still very unforgettable.

- You invented the 'heh' thing.

- 'Rima, what question did you do?'

*sticks thumb and index finger up, kinda like an L shape.*

'B.'

- 'Why don't have reception ah?'

*Blows on phone*

'Yarh Rima, how does that give you reception?'

- You have bladder superpower!

- 'SAM, EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING YOU DO, YOU SUCK!'

-And most recently, 'Sam, i hit you so hard until got thumbprint.'

'thumbprint?! you mean HAND print?'

'yarh ah, HAHAHAHA'

But then after all these very interesting years,

3 of the awesomest people became inseparable.

Yes, we're all very different in our ways,

But yet, similar in so many ways.

We've got each other's back no matter what.

And this friendship will lasts for many more years to come.

Considering you already traumatised me with all your beatings.

Cecilia and I loved you deeeep-deep.

Prolly more than your boyfriend next time. HAHA.

So, Rima, here's wishing you a HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

Your birthday will be a great one tomorrow.

Hope you'll gain more wisdom and strength to overcome whatever

difficulties that's coming your way.

Hope you'll be more gentle also.

Pity me ah. HAHA.

And don't burp like how you did last time, ever again.

It was a really frightening moment for me.

NO ONE BURPS THAT LOUD. Hahaha.

RSC FOR LIFE (:

From me, to you babe (:

2010-05-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

If i asked you to stay with me and bask in the ravishing beauty of this full moon,

talking about our life stories till the break of dawn,

would you say yes?

Please say yes?

I have people to say that I'm still very young,

not 18 yet and all that.

But you know what, I'm embracing my youth.

We will all grow old one day and then once again,

we'll be complaining about that.

So yes, I'm 17, not legal yet.

But i am still having the time of my life.

I'm not old enough to know all of life's wisdom,

but i am old enough to know enough.

And, I still have time to know MORE.

Why must we all make sense?

And i just won't make sense.

For once I'm just gonna live.

I'M JUST GONNA LIVE.

2010-04-23T22:16:00.002+08:00

SAMANTHA NICOLE PEH,

YOU HAVE GOT TO START STUDYING, DAMN IT!

And when the lights all went out, we watched our lives on the screen.

I hate the ending myself, but it started with an alright scene.

2010-04-19T21:36:00.005+08:00

MY GRANNY IS 80 YEARS OLD TODAY.

I repeat, 80 YEARS OLD.

I remember how my grandma took care of me, when my mom was in labour with my brother.

I had high fever as a kid and she took very good care of me.

Never did punish me for anything.

I was said to be her favourite granddaughter.

But i remember hating staying at my grandma's place when i was young too.

I hated the thought of even being away from my mom.

And i was prolly too young to comprehend why I'm always at my grandma's place.

Now that I'm older and more mature in thought,

i realised that, i love my grandma.

She doted on me a lot, i mean, even now.

I've got to be more grateful.

Appreciate her before it's too late.

And then it gave me a thought about life.

Would i ever live up to 80?

Or will i go through the apocalypse before i even reached that ripe old age.

But then i realised that i don't really care.

It's what I've accomplished in the mean time that really matters.

So if I've done what i need to do in life,

I'm ready to go anytime.

And if you think about it,

death really scares a person when it happens to your loved ones.

I'm seeing so many people going in and out of their relationship nowadays.

The whole hook ups and break ups.

How being in a relationship automatically makes you ridiculously happy.

And also how it makes you feel like the whole world is crashing before your eyes.

Just like today i was chatting with my friend.

She has issues and she knows it.

She has some misunderstanding with her boyfriend and she's HARDLY ever happy.

Then her sis help her by sending a text to her boyfriend.

The boyfriend replied and she was on cloud nine automatically.

With the BIGGEST smile on her face and with her floating all over the place.

Then it hit me that why can't we be just as happy when we're single?

C'mon people, we all got to be happy with ourselves in order to make others happy right?

If i want a boyfriend, i would want one who makes me feel good about myself.

Okay, if you're a girl,

let's all face it, we all have days where we feel like we're fat.

And even though, everybody says you're not, you just can't seem to agree.

But if, somebody says you're fat, and then we get mad.

See how a girl works, aren't we awesome?

Guys, don't try to understand a girl.

I don't think you'll ever be able too, cos we ourselves don't.

But i am having one of those days.

So just let me rant.

GOTTA LOSE WEIGHT, GOTTA LOSE WEIGHT...

GRANDMA'S 80TH BIRTHDAY LUNCH AT SHANGRI-LA.

The one with the dyed brownish hair and red blouse is my grandma.

Some sista loveeee.

MY NIECE BIANCA! Oh how i love her so.

She might be the most adorable/naughty little person i will ever come across.

She's only 3 and she's so adorably smart.

Example One:

We were at the hospital visiting my godpa,

Bianca: I wanna see big fish.

Her dad/my cousin: What big fish?

Bianca: Uncle Steven say he will bring me go and see the big fish.

Her dad: Don't have big fish larh, uncle Steven bluff you.

Bianca: Nooo, uncle Steven never bluff me...

Can't believe she's 3.

Example two:

Sheena [calling Bianca]: Baby, come here i wipe your hand.

Bianca: I'm not a baby anymore. I'm a big girl now.

Her father: Yarh and when you call her Bianca she says, 'I'm not Bianca, I'm little darling.'

She's growing up so fast, it scares me.

I pray you won't fade away.

2010-04-14T23:20:00.002+08:00

I hate cyclists who rings their bell at me so damn impatiently.

I'm gonna take your bell and stick it up your ass.

The pathway isn't that narrow.

So, what the hell is your problem?

Can't you just maneuver around me?

YOUR BIKE SHOULD BURN IN HELL.

I think i have issues.

I'm becoming like my sister's friend.

Funny angry woman. HAHA.

So, after encountering that irranoying cyclist.

I made a list on what i hate and what i actually like.

I think i have a love-hate relationship on everything.

For example,

I love ice cream but i hate the taste of cream.

Which is why i love sorbet (pronounce as SHER-BERT! For Mut's sake)

I like receiving texts, but i don't like replying.

I like my job, but i hate serving people.

I HATE happy couples. HAHA. BURN!

Okay, i don't hate them, they just annoy me.

I dislike a lot of things but that's all i can think about right now.

I, Samantha Nicole Peh, declare bankruptcy.

For the month.

So, don't ask me out till the 28th.

Hey math peeps.

Thanks for today (:

I've got a excellent idea for our next outing.

Let's go BOWLING!

My brother's voice is breaking!

Bro, you're growing up. Congrats.

Stop being such a nerd. AND NO HANKY PANKY!

Your mother is so sad, but i can't help but laugh.

'I miss Shaun's old voice. I should have recorded his voice last time.'

She thinks that once her kids are all grown up, means she's getting old.

Hahaha.

You can take back your memories, their no good to me.

2010-04-12T20:58:00.004+08:00

My sis' friend is so funny,

i swear i can just literally laugh my ass off with her around.

She's so angry all the time but funny.

She's a funny angry woman.

She called my store one time, sounding all angry.

That's her usual tone by the way.

So i told my sister, 'some angry woman is on the phone'.

Then a few hours later she came to my store and said,

'Hi Sam, i am Saffy, the angry woman on the phone.' Haha.

Today, i was just siting with her at parkway, watching the world go by.

We then saw this couple holding hands.

She said, 'Look at those 2 idiots holding hands,

they look so happy. I hate happy people.

I'm gonna take all the happy people and all the raisins in the world,

bring them to Tampines and BURN.'

She apparently hates Raisins and Tampines.

Angry woman, hates the world. HAHA.

You know how you hope that after a real mundane day at work, and you hope that maybe

some hot guy would just come right through that Starbucks door

and maybe make my day a little happier.

Like a cheap thrill.

Then i met this guy, well, he's a regular, always studying at my store.

And yeah, he's pretty cute.

Then i was talking to him one day and found out that he's 25 years old!

But i swear he doesn't look that old.

What a major kill joy.

It's alright he's still pretty cute.

Hey Wiyah!

You better be a frequent reader of my blog babe.

Cos this is going out to you.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY GIRL!

Hope you have the strength to overcome whatever circumstances

that comes your way my friend.

Forget about that jerk already.

Didn't you hear? Single is the new cool.

Or you might want a imaginary boyfriend that I've got.

HE'S PERFECT.

I love my Math people.

Here's some special mathematical loving from me guys.

Love you all deeeeeep-deep (:

But you know, i still miss my all-time special girls who went through

all kinds of shit with me.

How many years of good-good friendship has it been already huh.

5 years plus?

Well, i know for sure, this friendship is gonna last for many years to come.

And yes, the Starbucks BL people.

You guys are some mean ass people.

With all the endless jokes and pranks.

Saying that I'm such a bimbo.

However, i can never frown for long with you guys around.

You people are NEVER boring.

And thanks for being soooo patient with me at work.

And consistently asking me if i was okay when i seem like I'm not.

Thanks guys really (:

I wish you the best, i guess?

2010-04-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

It takes place on a romantic setting in Rome.

Full of beautiful structures and buildings.

A famous love fountain is the objective of the story.

She went on a romantic endeavour in one of the most beautiful cities in the world.

Unfortunately, she wasn't so lucky in love.

Being pissed, she went to the fountain of love, picking the coins in the fountain.

Saving the poor souls that believe that it would bring them luck on love.

Who knew that, that would result in a sudden turn of events.

(Much like the music video for 'starstrukkk' aye?)

The owners of the coins that she picked,

Became fell head over heels for her.

To the point of being, desperately obsessed.

She however, fell in love with a drop dead gorgeous guy.

They hit it off.

But she suspected that, she might have picked up his coin too.

Making him fall into that same spell.

Doing the right thing, she almost gave him up on the day of their wedding.

But, what she did not know is that, it did not belonged to him.

He was genuinely in love with her.

Yeah, that's the end of my love life...

I wish.

But i want a boyfriend like Nicholas (Josh duhamel)

More importantly, I'm going to Rome and picking coins at the damn fountain.

I want my next boyfriend to get struck by lightning while playing American football.

Gets hit by a goat and works for the newspaper writing a column.

Brings me to a restaurant which blinds me temporarily.

My classmates will have to go through this whole obsession thing with me.

I don't care.

He's just so damn fine.

You're so hot that i melted (:

2010-04-04T20:59:00.003+08:00

Nothing hurts you more than seeing any of your family members fall to pieces in front of you.

Of course i mean emotionally.

Sis, all that I've said that day to you, i mean it.

Even if the whole world walks away from you, I'll still be there no matter what.

You can always count on me alright?

DR's last day in Starbucks last Thursday.

My god, it was messy as hell.

Poor DR, he can't escape the inevitable.

Especially with Michael and Asyron around.

They taped his hands and feet and carried him outside of store.

They poured ice water, frap mix, whip cream, mocha sauce, mango and raspberry syrup

all over him.

Poor DR. But sure as hell it was funny.

Thank God i was not caught in all that action.

I won't make it out alive.

What a way to remember us before moving on to his corporate job.

All thanks to Starbucks tradition.

We'll miss you dearly.

The only partner that talks to me in Chinese. Haha.

I think my store needs more guys.

When a new chance for a relationship comes knocking on your door.

I say, go for it.

Come what may.

2010-03-21T15:06:00.007+08:00

School isn't that bad when you're with the right company.

Brought my camera to school that day and had some side-splitting moments.

Seems more like a picnic than having math class right?

And so Wiyah bought this nips things and we found a green one.
Like the one above that Wiyah is holding.
It sure fits the packaging name.
Sick.

Here's Wiyah and her nips. Haha.

In the shuttle bus that saves us from walking such a long distance from Queenstown MRT.
Actually, it's quite near, but you know how Singaporeans are like these days.

MAZIANA AND WIYAH.

They are really lovely.

Leticia and Mel should be in this shot too,

buuuut, Mel is M.I.A-ing and Leticia transferred class.

Mr. Ling's class isn't that bad.
Sure as hell, he's boring, but you people never stick around long enough to find out more.

But, it's alright, I'll get shots of you people soon enough (:

PICNNNNNIC!

Lovely spot at ECP.

The sun was shining, the smell of fresh sea water filled the air,

the smiles of exuberance on each of our faces.

With old friends, nostalgia was imminent.
THEN,

DARK CLOUDS FILLED THE SKIES WITH ITS GLOOMINESS.
Dampened all our spirits...
for like a few seconds.

Ran for shelter with all our barang-barang, we did.

Found ourselves a pavilion to seek refuge and save our pathetic picnic.

Turns out to be,
not bad.

Thought that maybe, eating like a barbarian would help lift everyone spirit.

Thus, the face when i was caught on camera.

Finally, the inevitable came.
And there was like a huge storm and everyone was fighting for a slight chance of survival
in this horrid weather.
But none made it out alive, i mean dry.
Even us who was under a shelter early, couldn't escape mother nature's creation.

Since the rain killed our picnic,

We decided to bring out our love for Starbucks Coffee.

Ended the day with a ICE SHAKEN PASSION TEA.
It was not so bad after all.
what really matters is having fun with the company of old good friends.
Oh man, i really miss you guys.

ICE CREAM AND SHOPPING WITH THE OTHER GIRLS.

I miss the KC people.

MORE OUTINGS PEOPLE!

I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart.

2010-03-09T22:17:00.002+08:00

I can give a plethora of reasons why i hate doing opening,

but it all comes down to this.

I hate the morning slams.

I hate the morning crowd.

These caffeine-driven morons, who i think thrives on their daily doses of coffee,

or else can't simply function.

Worst part is, they come into Starbucks and thinking it's their damn store.

And as partners, we have to deal with them with a smile on our faces,

apologising to them when it's just a simple mistake,

or not even a mistake.

Of course there are the exceptions of the nice customers,

who actually bothered to make life easier for us.

Yes of course, we're the ones serving them and customers are always right.

However, just think,

One partner and one manager on shift,

dealing with 5 customers in line.

They don't simply order one drink or one pastry,

they order tons of things at one go.

Mistakes are bound to happen.

These customers, can't use their brains and figured that,

we are having a hard time serving these idiots.

And they think waiting in line is annoying?

Well, WE ARE FLABBERGASTED.

Honestly, i don't think they treat us like fair humans.

More like their servants.

Okay fine, we are being paid for.

But don't we deserve a little respect and appreciation too?

F&B people are difficult to mess with you know.

You would not know what's IN your food, would you?

SCENARIO ONE:

I was doing POS (cash register), and i was busy with an order.

I had to warm up a few things and brew coffee.

So, my fellow partner took this woman with a baby's order.

And he called out, 'grande latte' for me to key it in when i was done with the previous order.

When i took this woman's money and handed her, her change.

and put her baby on the counter.

So her coffee was in front of the baby.

She just stare at me with this pissed off face.

And just held out her change in my face.

And said, 'Don't put the coffee in front of the baby.'

THEN DON'T PUT THE GODDAMN BABY ON THE FREAKING COUNTER!

The POS counter is simply to hand out food and drinks.

If i don't put the drinks there, where the hell am i supposed to put it?

Up her ass ah?

Turns out, i keyed in the wrong drink and gave her the wrong amount of change.

But, nooooo, she can't just simply tell me what i did, she just held it out to me and stare at me.

Of course i was confused and already very irritated.

Then she finally said,

"I ordered a grande Americano", so why are you charging me for the wrong drink?"

CAN'T SHE JUST SAY IT IN THE FIRST PLACE?!

like, "Oh, i think you charged me for the wrong drink?"

Instead of being so stuck up about it and thinks the world world owes her a living.

These bloody Chinese tai-tais who thinks they speak with a Caucasian slang

and they are all that.

Feel like going on a killing spree right now.

However, it was my mistake, so i just apologised.

Bugged me for the whole day.

SCENARIO TWO:

This couple came in, guy is a Caucasian and his other half is a Chinese.

Asked for the Fritata.

But because we had this unexpected slam, we ran out of it and didn't bring enough in.

So it was sold out.

Of course, the guy didn't understand and said,

"It's sold out already?! How long have you been open?"

I said, "2 hours."

"How many did you bring in?"

I said, "6."

He got pissed and said, "you know this is wrong."

What do they expect me to do?

Magically make one appear in front of them?

It sells fast, what can i do?

Who knew there would be such a slam on a weekday morning?

Unreasonable.

Maybe, I'm also cranky in the morning.

Thus, the sudden outburst.

I just needed to rant,

or else i might burst and explode into pieces.

Pissing off.

In summary, today was just plain bad.

Could be wrong, but it could have been right.

2010-03-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

Do you remember when you were just a kid in pre-school?

Talking to a complete stranger for 5 minutes in your class

and you instantly become best friends?

The thought about money and education never crossed your mind.

When the only thing that mattered was playing with your neighbours,

and getting treats whenever you did something good?

Happiness then, was so easily attainable.

Worries was when you did something wrong and you didn't want to get punished.

Exams was simply just spelling or multiple choice.

We didn't even know what's the meaning of 'relationships'.

It was all so simple.

Until we all grew up.

I know how i always go on about how growing up is so detestable.

However, despite ALL that,

it is a good learning experience.

No matter how much we all hate it,

it is still a journey we must go through.

Might as well embrace it.

I still have so many things to learn.

I don't want to grow old without knowing anything about life.

Through challenges, we gain wisdom.

Okay, whoever that went for the Paramore concert tonight,

PLEASE DON'T TELL ME ABOUT IT,

I DON'T FREAKING WANT TO KNOW OKAY.

Go discuss it with people that went for it.

Don't be an ass.

All good things must come to an end.

2010-03-05T22:44:00.003+08:00

Something that i failed to tell you is that i missed you too.

2010-03-04T01:18:00.002+08:00

I WISH I WAS A PUNK ROCKER WITH FLOWERS IN MY HAIR.

Which means, i want all the privileges of being a rock star,

rocking the socks off all my fans,

WITH FLOWERS IN MY DAMN HAIR.

It's just one of those random surge of imaginations.

Maybe it's because it's 1.40am now.

The guys are back from Bangkok.

I think it's pretty cool to be traveling with just your friends.

Looks like loads of fun and it's one hell of an experience.

With lots of planning to be done and all.

Of course you have to be traveling with people with survival instincts and not hopelessly lost.

I'm sorry Rima, i can never travel with you.

You and I know, we'll both get lost.

Knowing how ridiculously, depressingly blur we are.

Hahaha.

I'm liking school more each day.

Less drama and pretty conducive.

Not forgetting,

that HOT GUY WITH THE HOODIE.

We're obsessed and sorta proud of it.

We're gonna start our own stalker club or something. HAHA.

The people with the same 'frequency' as me at school.

Doesn't make me feel so out of place as compared to anywhere else.

Cos, i actually feel at ease with them,

knowing their in the same plight as me.

They truly understand how it's like, and not give you the,

"WHAT?! YOU'RE REPEATING?!" look,

when they ask you what are you doing now.

Of course my old friends from KC and church.

They don't judge me by my results and still like me for who i am.

And i definitely appreciate that and still love them deep-deep.

But sometimes, you still feel uncomfortable.

Especially those who are in JCs or polys.

When they are talking about their school life and the new stuff they learn.

I can just go, "oh, is it? Sounds interesting. Me? Oh nothing, you probably knew it last year."

"Last DAMN year".

Makes you feel like killing yourself.

But que sera sera. No point dwelling in my own sorrows.

I really miss my old friends.

I miss hanging out with them.

My new friends are great.

Like people from MDIS and Starbucks.

But i still hold a special bond with the old ones.

You people know who you are.

Watching "Wolfman" gives twilight's Jacob Black a whole new perspective.

If i combine those 2 werewolves,

I'll get a hot skitzophrenic killing machine.

Go figure.

It was Subway Boy's (aka Jude cheong) birthday 2 days ago.

HAPPY SWEET 16TH!

Finally huh. Knowing how anxious you are about growing up.

Study hard for N's and O's.

Don't become like me.

Better warn you first, before anyone else does.

Stop gallivanting the streets and quit being such a perv with your erotic thoughts.

HAHAHA. Kidding.

Don't want to think about it.

2010-02-26T23:38:00.003+08:00

Lunar new year resolutions:

Maybe it's too late for that, but too bad, i'm making one anyway.

1. Prioritising. (It's about time right?)

2. In whatever i decided to do. I'll make sure that I'll be the best at it,

or i might as well not do it at all.

3. I'm not going to fall in love. (Honestly, can't deal with that this year)

4. Make sure that I'm giving my parents money every month

and try to do some serious money planning.

5. I failed at it last year, but I'm back up on my feet and aiming for victory this year.

Also to prove to people that i can still do well studying in a private school and not

going back to KC.

6. Start jogging once a week.

7. Become a super barista. (But i just voided about a $100 worth of stuff recently,

so, that would have to wait.)

8. To simply be optimistic.

9. Keeping in mind that however busy i may be this year and whatever conundrums i

may be in, I'll always have God, my family and friends.

Only realistic goals this year.

Pretty achievable right?

The guys in store are going to Vietnam this weekend for their holiday.

And the girls are busying slogging their butts off.

You guys are such lucky bastards.

When we were young, the only thing that mattered was taking time for the things we loved.

2010-02-25T01:21:00.002+08:00

A good friend told me that,
those people that always look angry and show their depression,
are actually the ones who have the least troubles in their lives
but simply fail to appreciate it.
It's the happy ones we should be wary about.

Which is very true.
Bottom line is, just be happy with what you have.
There are definitely people who are worse off out there,
who are taking life with a better perspective.
It's just a matter of how we decide to face that matter.
Like how they always say, what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

This is a story about a guy. Let's just name him Tom.
Tom likes this girl he knew for only a day.
He continued liking her for the next few days.
One day he decides to confessed to her.
Claims that he's head over heels in love with her.
However, she didn't accept him.
He goes on telling her that he doesn't want to give up.
She met him in school the next day.
Saw him a couple of times but Tom seems to be avoiding her.
She went home and found out that he got into a relationship with another girl.
Pretty amusing isn't it?
What are your take on it?

Prioritizing.

2010-02-21T00:59:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging with my sister's iPhone.
Cool or what. Haha.

Today is my store's shift manager (Dan)'s last day.
I'm so gonna miss that fella man.
And I've got my first Starbucks war.
Damn, was that chaotic.
I had whip cream and bar mocha smeared all over my face by Dan.
Fish had green tea powder in her hair.
Asyron had dark mocha powder on his face and back.
Dan had it worst though.
Bar mocha and whip cream on his apron.
Whip cream in his hair.
Dark mocha powder on half of his body.
The whole store stinks of dark mocha after that.
Thank god I was not doing closing.

Dan is such an idiot.
Dan: Sam, what's lou hey?
Me: it's like a dish where we sort of toss vegetables and other stuff.
Dan: huh? So you throw vegetables at each other?
So you're suppose to toss it at who? Your parents or your parents throw at you?
Sam: [laughs hysterically] you're such an ass Dan.

Technically I don't know how to explain what's Lou hey.
And Dan was being such a dumbass about it. Haha.

Today at work,
Dan: we have salads in store.
What happens if Sam wants to Lou hey?

We are going to miss you at work Dan.
Do visit us often.
But you know Dan,
we'll always have swensons (:

2010-02-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

What are your views on, "Love at first sight".

Seems pretty ridiculous to me.

It's either you find that particular person exceptionally attractive,

and you probably want that person for bragging rights.

Like a pretty vase without knowing the cracks inside.

I think it's redundant to confess to a person when you only known her/him for days.

Love is an acquired feeling.

Not spontaneous.

However, I am not ruling out the possibility of actual love at first sight.

It's just really rare.

Rare to the point of extinction.

I never had a job before.

Never had to experience financial independence before.

It's, difficult.

Now, i have to keep in mind to put money aside for

transport, food, school fees and other miscellaneous stuff.

I finally know the importance of money managing.

Juggling school and work is not that easy either.

It's mentally and physically draining.

Not to forget that I'm starting tuition soon.

It's just all part of growing up i guess?

Rima and i agreed that we,

love the chase, but scared of the commitment.

If we crawl, till we can walk again.

Then we'll run, until we're strong enough to jump.

Then we'll fly, until there is no end.

2010-02-06T12:16:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, some things can only be missed.

But it will never come back to you.

Even if you tried to renew it.

It will never be the same.

This is when nostalgia can be such a bitch.

Happy birthday bestfriend.

Oh so naive.

2010-01-31T22:43:00.003+08:00

My blog seems like some online Oprah sharing session.

Gosh.

Actually, there's no point going on endlessly about how life sucks.

Which was what i've been doing for the past few days or weeks.

There comes a point of time when you realised that, everyone's life's sucks.

I think it's just a simple routine for disappointment.

-Depression

-Self pity

-Acceptance

-Moving on

There's always a way out.

We just have to make the right choices.

I just wish i didn't spend all that time brooding over how i'm such a loser.

I'm wasting another year trying to accomplish something that i could have done last year.

Well, that's just too bad for me.

I figured that there's no point in saying,

"i should have done this, i should have done that.."

What matters now is,

"I'm GOING TO do this"

And stick to it.

Well, i've found my way out.

But just to state a obvious fact and get it out of my system once and for all.

Fuck my life. Haha.

What's worth the prize is always worth the fight.

2010-01-28T03:18:00.004+08:00

What a screwed up day at work.

Caught in the middle of a cross-fire.

Guilt ridden to the bone.

Ultimate awkward moment.

I guess that's just another day at work.

I now truly understand how it feels to grow up

with huge responsibilities and decisions.

Things that mattered a whole lot to me in the past,

seems really miniscule now.

Now it seems like each important decision,

holds a heavy amount of burden.

And it seem to affect your whole life.

If life is being such a dang bitch,

I don't want to grow up anymore.

All i really want to have these days,

is strength to face whatever conundrums i have in my daily life.

Wisdom to make the right decisions.

And a inquisitve mind with a thirst for knowledge.

Awaiting for that sweet victory that has yet to come.

2010-01-16T02:35:00.000+08:00

No one could comprehend her feelings of pure disappointment when she looked at her script.

A dash of denial and sheer sadness washed over her.

Then it hit her that, that was it.

She's pretty much a complete failure.

The fear of disappointment she assumed that her parents would feel haunted her.

she soon learned that nobody could feel more disappointed than herself.

The next few days, friends and family comforted her with assurance that there's a way out.

She eventually felt better.

However, she's left with confusion about her choices in the future.

Which was not many. To be honest.

Never in her life did she felt so lost.

No sense of directions in life whatsoever.

The hopes and dreams she once had, was killed.

Or, just simply not within her grasp yet.

Looking for an easy way out in a dog-eat-dog country is just not possible.

But she knows that, nobody's life can be miserable forever.

There is definitely something better for her out there.

Soon enough.

Teach us to embrace our every joy and pain.

2010-01-12T00:47:00.001+08:00

2010 is off to a bad start.

2009-12-21T23:53:00.002+08:00

SO, Christmas is round the corner.

And i feel like making my annual wish list.

Which is pretty much impossible to get, but what the heck,

I just like thinking about the impossible.

1. I wanna grow taller (yeap, still number one on my list)

2. I want a 3 in 1 package. Containing M.shadows, Gabe Saporta and Taylor Lautner.

(PLEASE WITH WHIP CREAM AND CARAMEL DRIZZLE ON TOP)

3. 15 points and below for O's. (This is a gargantuan wish. WHICH DIE DIE MUST HAPPEN)

4. I want hayley williams voice or the lead singer from A Fine Frenzy.

5. I want a hot date for Christmas. HAHA. (Not really important actually)

6. Thinner thighs and arms.

7. I wish i was musically inclined or mad artistic skills.

8. For my family and friends to stay happy, healthy and safe.

9. Never lose a friendship. Especially those that are so close to me. Or to rekindle old friendships that died long ago.

10. Overall, i think i just want to improve myself in every positive way. Become a better person.

L-O-V-E is just another word I'll never learn to pronounce.

2009-11-27T02:42:00.002+08:00

I'M ALL FOR TEAM JACOB BLACK!

But before all you haters come attacking me with pitch forks and pelting me with stones,

let me say this,

TAYLOR LAUTNER IS A FINE PIECE OF EYE CANDY.

However, i LOVE Edward too.

In the book.

Robert Pattinson just didn't turn out quite like what i expected.

So, I'm fair. I love them both. Just in different ways.

2009-11-27T02:08:00.003+08:00

JR says: First off, welcome to Starbucks.

I've got the job!

I'm having this mixed feelings though.

I'm excited yet scared.

Finally working. For real.

For the first time.

I remember someone saying to me last year.

Cos, i was bumming so much during the holidays after N's.

He said, "Go get yourself a life, go learn a third language"

And then goes on telling me how he is making full use of his life.

Frankly, I don't give a damn.

But, i guess that asshole is right.

I should do something.

Plus, working would help me pass time.

*Pats myself on the back*

So, training only starts on the 7th.

I'm enjoying my last 2 weeks of being a bum.

When i start work, life would start feeling hectic.

Hopefully, my blurness and clumsiness don't get me into too much trouble.

JR says: I'm hiring someone based on whether he/she would be a asset to my store.

I'm technically more of a klutz.

Oy vey.

Only blogging cos I'm bored and i need to rant.

Nostalgia is a failure of true emotion.

2009-11-22T22:41:00.003+08:00

Seeing how dead Rima's blog is,

I decided to blog about graduation.

I'm now officially a KC ALUMNI.

Our graduation is held at SHANGRI-LA.

Yes, be jealous people.

Our table toasting to friendship and the fact that we're finally getting the hell out of school.

The buffet. Quite a spread.

Our beloved class chairperson for 2 years in a row. She's awesome.

Class 501. WE ROCK AND WE KNOW IT. I'm gonna miss them all.

The math teacher that taught me for most of my years in KC.

Register 20, 21 and 22. Been like that for 5 years!

Our dear biology teacher. She's really great. SHE HEART BIOLOGY. WE HEART HER.

Now and forever babes (:

Shu si, Rima, Lia, Michaela, Me, Cecilia, Michelle and Wendy.

Friends since sec 1!

Oh, how we have all grown.

Grown much taller than me.

In general, we all had a blast.

Although our heels killed our feet and took up most of our energy.

It was still awesome.

Damn am i feeling nostalgic already.

I'll miss every single one of them.

Once a KCIAN, ALWAYS a KCIAN.

I have to report at starbucks big splash on Tuesday.

Good news aye?

Life's a game, but it's not fair

I break the rules so I don't care.

So I keep doing my own thing.

Walking tall against the rain.

Victory's within the mile.

Almost there, don't give up now.

2009-11-18T02:02:00.003+08:00

So, O's are finally over and graduation is this Saturday.

5 years in KC is no joke man.

Although i tell myself i won't go back to that god-forsaken place to study ever again,

I guess I'll still miss all those nonsensical times i had there.

-'Discreetly' using our mobile phones in class.

-Hiding from the security guards during recess (coconut head auntie and ka-me-ra woman)

-Smuggling food and eating during lessons.

-The early morning rush to copy or attempt to complete our homework

that we conveniently 'forgot' to do the night before.

-The last minute revision for exams which is happening on that very day.

-The strange soothing effect when you hear your fellow classmates say to you,

"you also never do ah? Okay GOOD."

-The endless mocking and gossips of certain teachers.

-Eating my nasi with chilli kentang and 2 fish fillet topped with curry.

-Rima's way of trying to kill me by giving me a heart attack every time she tries to cheat during an exam.

-The make ups and break ups therapy sessions Rima, Cecilia and I share during 'free' periods.

-2 and a half hours in the com lab on FB and MSN when we were supposed to be doing our F&N coursework.

And many, many more.

Simply just too many to mention.

Guess that's what makes secondary school so memorable and enjoyable huh.

Rima, Cecilia, Shu si, Michelle, Wendy, Lia, Mikey, Delicia and Cherie.

I've known you guys since sec 1 man.

And we're still as close as ever. Or even closer.

Gosh, i love you guys.

Farah and Cassan.

Only known you guys since sec 3, and you 2 are one of the weirdest people on earth.

But, it's always the weird ones that I'll remember vividly.

Love you guys too.

Let's make graduation one hell of a good time aye?

Starbucks, oh starbucks.

Will you call me already?

Haven't felt this way in a long time.

2009-11-10T17:54:00.002+08:00

I'm BROKE, BROKE and BROKE.

Wanna earn my own income,

but the dang place didn't call me yet.

My patience is growing thin.

Maybe I'll go for another interview.

What a money-sucking month.

On the bright side, ONE MORE DAY LEFT!

RAHHHHHHHHH.

"Don't stop, make it pop.

DJ blow my speakers up.

Tonight, i'mma fight till we see the sunlight.

Tick tock on the clock,

but the party don't stop."

On Thursday is CECILIA'S BIRTHDAY!

I know i won't be blogging on that day

cos I'll be too busy partying.

So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE GIRL.

The party will be a blast.

As one of the VVVVIP,

I'll make it happen.

I think i need a new life.

Forget about the past.

Undo all my past mistakes.

I have to stand up for myself.

I'll do things cos it makes me happy.

Starting from today.

I'll be a new me.

You don't deserve that chapter in my life.

2009-11-08T17:14:00.003+08:00

3 more days to endure to F.R.E.E.D.O.M.

"Party everyday, p-p-p-party everyday."

And then i can start work.

If i do get the job at starbucks.

Specifically at Bigsplash.

*Fingers crossed*

Speaking of which, my cousin Marco is SOOO nice to me.

Illi telling Marc: Sam's got a interview at Starbucks with Sheena.

Dad: Yeah, Sheena is shift manager.

Marc asking me: Then you?

Me: Haven't go for the interview yet what manger you want me to be?

Marc: *Does mopping action* Toilet manager.

How nice huh.

And then, his kindness doesn't stop there.

Me going off for my interview: Okay, bye Marc.

Marc: Don't worry about the interview. Just bring a mop and they will definitely hire you.

He's such a nice cousin.

I ought to strangle him.

You are the only exception.

2009-10-16T00:47:00.003+08:00

I think this would be my last day to sing,

'i am 16 going on 17...'

I hate that my birthday is so close to the 'O' levels.

Really mothereffing inconvenient.

Actually my birthday can be very simple.

Give me alcohol, dance music and a few good friends.

And we have a party.

For the sake of rima, I'll provide milo or something ah.

Time is passing too damn fast man.

Too.Damn.Fast.

I don't wanna grow up anymore.

My exams are in less than a week away.

Less.Than.A.Week.

Tension is building up every single day.

Buuut, less than a month to freeeedom.

Prepare the confetti and vodka.

Happy 17th birthday in advance to me.

I can finally see what's good for me.

2009-09-20T02:41:00.003+08:00

Midnight show with my sis.

I think half of our nation's population are practically nocturnal.

It's so goddamn annoying to see the cinema filled with couples.

It just irks me.

On the other hand, this show makes a lot of sense.

Two thumbs up.

Cobra Starship's 'HOT MESS' album.

AND I FINALLY GOT IT!

AND LIKE A MILLION HEARTFELT 'THANK YOU' TO THE PERSON THAT GAVE IT TO ME.
You are dang awesome i swear (:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS!

Enjoy yourselves man.

Eat like pigs. Collect hell loads of money. Dress to impress.

The last thing on her mind is growing up.

2009-09-13T14:45:00.006+08:00

It takes two to make a thing go right.

It takes two to make it out of sight.

GREAT SHOW.

More of a chick flick but hell funny.

I'm enjoying the holidays.

I really do not wish for it to end.

But at the same time, i miss Rima.

That cacat ding dong.

Haven't seen her this WHOLE week.

Tomorrow is my MATH PRELIMS.

May God have mercy on my soul.

It feels great to be in the rain.

Especially when i feel like @!$#.

I used to know you so well, but now, i feel like i don't know you at all.

2009-09-08T11:15:00.003+08:00

I think i can still do a lot of things with one working ear right?

I'm not completely deaf in a ear yet.

But I'm just preparing for the worst.

And the doctor was so damn freaking comforting.

The first thing he said when he checked it was,

"Oh my, not good."

And i have to see him again in 5 days time.

I guess all i can do now is be positive.

I'm sure I'll be fine (:

Just pick yourself up and sing.

2009-09-06T16:39:00.003+08:00

Falling in love is like committing emotional suicide.

2009-09-04T19:41:00.004+08:00

So, i was bored today and decided to just go on Sheena's laptop.
Since my laptop had been taken over by my brother.
So i went through her itunes.
And this one song came up.
It's called 'happy' by mocca.
And i just laughed my ass off.
Because, it's like a fairy tale-ish kind of song.
Those kind of theme songs you get from the cartoon 'barbie'.
and i imagined my sis singing to it.
Its so ironic, it's funny.
Go figure.

And hitting my head in the morning just throws the rest of the day off balance.
Rima: Eh, very hard eh.
Me: No larh, my head soft what.
You only can get this sort of question from Rima.

You treat me just like another stranger.

2009-08-30T18:29:00.003+08:00

I'm excited about the future, but i have this sense of nostalgia.

I can't wait for O's to be over, but i want time to stop.

My life is so paradoxical, it's irritating.

After O's it will be quite hectic from then on.

Class party [tentative]

Cecilia's birthday chalet.

Graduation night and thrashing of hotel room [tentative]

Tprawks!

Ultimately, get myself a part-time job...

There is no such thing as the ultimate perfection on earth.

Excluding God and all that.

Perfection is the eye of the beholder.

Which also means, perfection is based solely on one's opinion.

Only aim to be perfect in your own eyes.

Not what others think perfection is.

Note to self: STUDY, STUDY, STUDY.

2009-08-24T19:18:00.003+08:00

I know I'm stress when there's this incessant cursing in my head.

Fuck.

Not good enough.

2009-08-17T22:29:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i don't know what's the purpose of having a blog.

Revealing too much of yourself on a online journal is simply too risky.

So most of the time i write some meaningless crap.

And i am still quite amazed that some people actually reads my blog.

They actually want to read some of my meaningless crap!

But seriously, you guys, should go get yourself a life.

Nah, I'm just playing.

Read if you must. It'll help kill maybe less than a minute of your life?

I was doing some thinking a while back.

Who are we as people, with equal rights as others,

to criticize and judge?

Everybody's different and nobody is perfect.

If we were to be judged, let it be on fair grounds and only god should do it.

If only we could all remember that,

i think the world would be a happier place.

Just move like you gonna die soon.

2009-08-14T19:24:00.003+08:00

"I will never sing perfectly. But I will always be awesome. Even when I fuck up. I’m awesome because I am not afraid to fall nor ashamed to stumble. Because I never wanted to be beautiful, and I never pretended to be." -Gabe Saporta

Some words of wisdom from a true rockstar.

This is why i absolutely love, love, love him.

He's simply amazing.

Fangs up, cobra style.

2009-08-07T21:07:00.003+08:00

Okay, I am officially a hardcore, and i mean HARDCORE fan of Cobra Starship.

Fangs up suckaaa.

My new tutor is Chinese, named Lucas.

And everybody thinks that the name Lucas gives them the impression that the guy is hot.

We'll see.

National day 2009.

I was dancing retarded-ly to national songs in school.

And I'm cool like that.

Fireworks on Sunday.

Boom boom pow. Like literally.

Stumbling but yeah, you're still looking hella fine.

2009-08-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

What the @#*%!@#$%$#@ is wrong with everybody today?!

It's in the middle of the night for god's sake.

Give it a rest and go SLEEP.

Bloody freaking hell.

I just realised that the human species are never happy with what they have.

Our wants will never be enough until we are practically drowning in it.

Like totally submerged, suffocating and choking you to death.

Maybe even then, we still might want more.

Everybody wishes they could go to heaven but no one wants to die.

2009-07-28T20:55:00.003+08:00

I want to be a studious, hardworking person,

that studies till i have astigmatism

and have to wear 50 inch thick glasses (:

I can't believe my tutor got me a substitute for his absence.

I thought I'll be free from tuition from now on.

But noooo, a freaking substitute.

What a disappointment.

Love isn't worth the pain.

2009-07-25T23:19:00.003+08:00

Question: What does it mean by "I give you my heart"?

In the first place, what does a heart have to do with anything?

Why does a heart symbolise love?

A heart is just a vital organ right?

Why can't my lungs symbolise love then?

Just a random thought.

GABE SAPORTA GABE SAPORTA GABE SAPORTA

is loved.

I SHALL GIVE HIM MY LUNGS (:

Cecilia, i enjoyed studying and bowling with you babe ((:

Nostalgia is the failure of true emotion.

2009-07-13T22:19:00.004+08:00

I feel like i need to revive my blog.

The only good thing that happened recently was

TRANSFORMERS TRANSFORMERS TRANSFORMERS

GOLD CLASS GOLD CLASS GOLD CLASS

We all have very expensive taste apparently.

School's been aight.

I love everything about school except the studying part.

Sometimes i wonder what i do without these two.

These past few days it's like we are high or something.

I help Cecilia decorate her journal.

But i didn't finish it.

Cecilia: Thanks HALF.

Sam: Huh?

Cecilia: It is only done halfway what.

Sam: Nooo. It's 3 quarters done! So you should say thanks 3/4!

You can always count on Cecilia to make these sort of comments. Haha.

Rima's not any better.

Did i tell you what a great friend she is?

[During bio lessons]

Sam: Omg, i suck. (take note, i was joking, i know I ROCK)

Rima: Yes Sam you suck. Everything and anything you do, you suck!

Sam: [Expression dead serious] Wow Rima, thanks for the great encouragement.

Rima: [laughs hysterically]

Rima, if this is the way you support people.

Do me a favour and never support me ever!

HAHAHA.

Not to mention i suffered a lot of injuries from both of them.

And they got me a new nickname too.

How nice of them huh.

Oh and we are gonna be goddamn successful in the future.

RSC Caffeine Masters or AKA, Really Shiok Coffee,

will be the next starbucks in the future.

Just you people wait. Haha.

Yesterday, my mom bought her birthday cake a month early.

We were discussing about her birthday and all.

She wanted to tell my dad that she wants to eat at jack's place for her birthday.

She said it too fast without really thinking,

it came out as,

Mom: Paul, my birthday i wanna eat jack fruit.

Dad: Okay. 1kg enough?

The rest of us: [Laughs hysterically]

Mommy, mommy...

Nothing's ever built to last.

2009-06-26T13:19:00.003+08:00

The holidays are over soon.

As usual, homework is not done.

And because of the H1N1 thing.

Rima and Cecilia won't be in school for the first week of school.

I don't want to back to school.

But the holidays was quite a bore.

Bumming at home most of my time.

Worse still, spending quality time with my brother.

I even watch NARUTO with him.

6 freaking episodes back to back.

This proves the extreme boredom i was in.

Played L4D for the first time in my life.

Half the time i don't know what the hell i was doing,

and i kept shooting my own teammates.

I had to be saved by Joel don't know how many million times.

But mind you, i didn't die at all.

Overall, it was DA BOMB.

Didn't know killing zombies was so much fun.

Haha. Joel, it's been a long time man.

MJ PASSED AWAY.

THE KING OF POP DIED.

He was a legend. A freaking legend.

A bit loony but STILL a legend.

No doubt people were making fun of him and all.

But everybody loves him for his dance moves and songs.

This is a sad day for people everywhere.

When you love a woman, you tell her that she's really wanted.

2009-06-08T17:14:00.003+08:00

So, Chinese 'O's is over.

Oh, and being the most intelligent person ever.

I forgot to bring my Chinese dictionary.

Thanks to Cassan.

Whose kiasu-ism saved my ass.

She brought 2 electronic dictionaries.

I love you forever Cassan.

June holidays has started.

But the school took one week of my holidays.

So, it officially started today.

But being the hardworking person that i am.

I'm going back to school tomorrow, Wednesday and Friday.

Math lessons with the DM.

That's not all,

I still have some chemistry help from some ex-KCians.

It's good for me but it burned more of my precious holidays.

I cancelled Math tuition for today though.

The last week is so hectic.

I was out everyday.

I'm either back at 7 or not home at all.

Spent most of my time with Cecilia.

And she's definitely enjoying life now in Indonesia.

Look here,

Rima is standing up straight and she is STILL shorter than Cecilia.

Face the fact Rima.

We're both short.

It was my sister's birthday yesterday.

I'll be nice and not reveal your true age.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SHARON PEH!

On her birthday was fun.

Went karaoke with her and we sang for 5 hours straight!

But that place is cheap.

$47+ plus lunch.

And the songs wasn't that cacat.

The place was nice too.

If you wanna go, it's across the road from bugis junction.

My family went to have a Japanese buffet after that.

Then my sis and I saw this hot personal trainer.

So we were just ogling at him.

I ask my mom whether we're suitable,

she simply says,
"Don't want larh. He's so big!"

HAHA.

My mom secretly don't want to talk to me.

I tried talking to her for like 15 mins.

Going on and on and on.

To find out that she wasn't listening to me.

When I'm talking about A, she's talking about B.

Then she stole the durian puffs from the restaurant.

Just because it's nice.

Part-time lovers.

2009-05-24T21:54:00.004+08:00

For those who didn't watch the finals for American Idol,

KRIS ALLEN WON!

And if you remember one duet by Megan and Michael,

singing 'Pretty flowers' by Steve Martin.

Well, I'm hooked on the song.

It's so cheesy but catchy.

If I gave you pretty flowers

If I took you out to dinner

If we walked on by the river

Would you invite me in

If we sat down on the sofa

If I told you funny stories

If I moved a little closer

Would you put your hand in mine

If I told you, you were lovely

If I put my arms around you

If I touched you on the shoulder

Would you rest your head on mine.

Tell me that's not cute. HAHA.

Go search it on youtube.

Too lazy to upload the video.

Takes years to build a good friendship, but just moments to destroy one.

Haven't felt like this in a long time.

2009-05-20T21:36:00.005+08:00

Intensive Chinese starts tomorrow.

How am i supposed to survive 6 periods of Chinese?!

I'll probably be sleeping for the first 3 periods.

And I'll be taking back my mid-years papers tomorrow also.

Doomsday.

Angels & Demons is one hell of a good movie.

Keeps you absorbed in the movie from the beginning to the end.

A lot of twist and turns too.

Keeps you guessing.

RESULTS OF THE AMERICAN IDOL IS TOMORROW!

I'm all for Kris Allen.

I can't stand Adam Lambert.

No doubt he has a good voice.

Never come across a singer like him before.

However, he's too drama mama for me.

He belongs to Broadway.

Either way, both of them are going to make an album.

So, whatever it is.

My throat is feeling very ECK.

I predict a sore throat coming.

Quote Joel's father, "Ohhhh. That's a bad sign."

How to sing for mass tomorrow?

Me: Here's a 'Guess' wallet.

Mom: Guess what?

Me: 'Guess' ah.

Mom: Yarh larh. Guess what?

Me: The wallet! 'Guess'.

Mom: Guess who?

Me: Aiyah, the brand 'Guess'!

Mom: Oh, i thought you asking me to guess.

My mom. Blur like nothing.

I'm so glad i found you. I love being around you.

2009-05-17T22:52:00.003+08:00

Congrats, congrats, congrats to the 2009 confirmants!

Like archbishop Nicholas Chia said,

well, didn't really hear what he said.

But it's something to do with going into adulthood of church.

Remember the 7 gifts from the holy spirit.

Piety, understanding, knowledge, counsel, fear of the lord, fortitude and wisdom.

And bestfriend, nice hanging with you again (:

CHINESE ORAL TOMORROW!

I'm going to screw it up.

At this moment, i wish i speak as fluent Chinese as my mom.

Doesn't matter if i say zero as gero,

or Dejavu as the jumbu.

There are so many nice movies coming out.

But i have no time to watch them all.

Plus, after i get back my mid-year results,

I'm officially screwed.

There goes my freedom and yes, life.

Like Joel would say, "life is bleak man".

The deadliest words: Maybe, one day...

2009-05-15T23:37:00.003+08:00

Just some random shit.

I am pretty depressed that my favourite udon place is closed down/under renovation.
I was really craving for udon.
Swimming tomorrow at Michelle's place.
I'm excited.
Even though i don't know how to swim (:

Swine flu has hit Malaysia.
It's getting closer people.
Get ready for the government to declare that we don't need to go to school.

Nobody but you.

2009-05-14T16:08:00.003+08:00

Guys? or Long time good friends?

Which one would you rather lose?

Which is more important to you?

By how you are behaving,

you seem to have made a decision already.
You never fail to amaze me really.

How you can be unhappy with me over and over again about the same thing.

Let me tell you this,

i never wanted any of your 'possessions'.

Ever.

Never even thought of it.

Cos i treasure friendships more than anything.

I don't want a repeat of last time.

But, you can continue doing what you're doing if that makes you happy.

This is a peace treaty.

I'm NOT trying to start a war.

NO MORE PAPERS! (:

All that i ever wanted.

2009-05-13T18:58:00.002+08:00

My new house phone has a answering machine!
My family was just playing with it yesterday.
My mom thinks she's so funny.
She told us not to pick up the phone cos she want to check out the answering machine.
So her first attempt goes like this,
"Please go and eat.
Please help me vacuum the floor.
Please, please help me vacuum the floor.
Um, YARH LARH, YARH LARH!
Just help me vacuum the floor larh!"
[laughs to herself]
[beep, beep, beep..]
End of her attempt.

ONE MORE MID-YEAR PAPER TO GO!
I can do it!

My depressants (:

2009-05-12T00:37:00.003+08:00

My brother can be quite funny at times.

My brother and i was rushing to the toilet cos both of us want to bathe first,

so i grabbed my clothes and ran to the toilet.

Then, he was too slow and he panicked when he saw me come out of my room already.

He then ran out of his room and shouted, "I DON'T NEED TO WEAR CLOTHES LARH!"

Hahaha. Don't know whether that's funny but i laughed damn hard at it.

Every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure (:

2009-05-10T22:44:00.004+08:00

Sweeeeet (:

Epiphany.

2009-05-10T20:40:00.005+08:00

Due to popular demand,

and no life bastards who is also skitzophrenic,

I finally decided to remove my tag board.

I'm too worn out to be bothered about spamers.

If you're not happy with me, just tell me aight?

Don't need to make yourself look stupid on my blog.

Everything is driving me insane nowadays.

I ask myself all the time,

why do i even bother?

But these people make me care.

-Family

-Rima and Cecilia.

-Delicia, Farah and cassan

-Wendy, shu si, Michelle, Lia and Michaela and Nadia

-Joel

-Jude

-Justin
-Matt

-Illi

-Joey Ng

Life would definitely be intolerable without you people (:

Alright then, PICTURES.

Last but not least, my boyfriend!

Can't do it without him (:

You are the reason i still believe.

2009-04-22T15:41:00.002+08:00

EMDD IS TODAY!
My first EMDD ever.
I'm not the biggest fan of my school,
and so i didn't bother going for the last 4 years.
But since this is my last year,
i thought, oh, what the heck.
The past few weeks while anticipating for EMDD was absolute euphoria and worrisome people.
"What dress are you gonna wear?"
"I'm so excited for EMDD."
Can't say so myself though.
Cos, to me, it's just a normal KC performance, held at a fancier place, creating a more sophisticated environment.
Instead of the hot and humid performance held at our cacat hall.
I'm not into the mood yet, but i will be hype up later. I promise.
All the money and energy spent will be worthwhile.
And hopefully there will be pictures uploaded soon.
Rima just text me to bring my "fountain" later.
When she meant foundation.
Rima, Rima...

Comparisons are easily done, once you've had a taste of perfection.

2009-04-20T21:45:00.002+08:00

To bestfriend:
I didn't mean to be so sensitive nowadays
and I didn't mean to seem so uninterested when you talk to me.
You think that i prolly changed.
But i can't figure out how.
I am trying to be myself and get along with the new you.
Just enjoy poly life.
Sorry that you have such a screwed up best friend.

P.S. I'll love you even if you change to become a real bitch in the future. You should know that better, and i still won't listen to jap screamo. Sorry.

2009-04-12T15:57:00.002+08:00

I'M DONE WITH MY F&N COURSEWORK!
Hallelujah!
Huge sense of achievement.
Sweet, sweet euphoria.
Well, for now.
Next to survive, PRACTICAL.
Yes yes, I won't try my own food the day before the actual practical again.
I've learned my lesson.
Oh, the agony of food poisoning... [pukes]

I was beginning to enjoy my secondary 5 life.
Cos we get the ground floor classroom.
No need to climb any cumbersome stairs.
BUT, a certain teacher has to break his leg and take our classroom.
Now we have to climb to the third floor for lessons.
Dang it.

I'M EXCITED (:
Hahaha.
So many events coming up,
-Watching 'Cats' the musical.
-Going for Jude's father birthday dinner thingy (I can't pass off good food. Haha.)
-EMDD! (You have no idea how excited Rima and co. are man.)
-Natalie's musical thingy at VJC. (Tentative)

I've just gone through a pretty good holy week.
Easter vigil mass was good.
Haha. I tricked Illi that mass was at 7.30pm when it was actually at 8pm.
Then we reached church much earlier than expected.
6.30 we were in church already.
Should have seen her face when i told her the truth man.
She says i wasted her time.
If she didn't make me miss half the mass of holy Thursday, I wouldn't have tricked her. Haha.

Good Friday was a killer man.
Really scared myself silly that day.
2 horror shows in a day does my heart no bloody good man.
First i watched "The unborn".
That show was so-so. Not that scary.
But the show Joel, Illi and I rented, "Mirrors".
Bloody hell.
It was more gore than anything.
The woman's tore her jaws apart until her ears!
This Illi and Joel hug my arms, then i couldn't cover my eyes,
so i was shouting and kicking the whole scene like one spastic child.
When i told them after that,
they laughed at me.
No wonder the show was M18.

Jesus Christ is risen today, hallelujah.

2009-03-28T01:09:00.002+08:00

It's been ages since i last blogged.
And my new found busy side of me is causing things to be all hay wired.
it's driving me insane.
Insane i tell you.
Especially F&N.
One hell of a bloody sickening subject.
My study hours has lengthened itself too.
I guess it's good.
With a new private tutor for math and all.
School hours are also gonna be longer starting from April.
School's seriously a bitch.
Stress is really getting to me.

I just realised my brother has at least 5 torch lights by his bed.
What in the world he needs 5 for, i have no idea.
Oh and the new EZ-LINK card sucks!
The picture was when i was freaking P5!
When i collected it at the office,
Rima saw it and immediately started laughing.
There are no words to describe how i look then.
It's like i went for extreme make-over.

I have a new obsession. Haha.
The sexiest man alive.
Matthew Charles Sanders.
A.K.A, M. Shadows.
My new beloved.
He wants me i just know it.
A rock star obsession is better than a fictional character obsession aye?

Thanks for the chocolates Jude (:

No pain or sign of time.

2009-03-16T11:10:00.002+08:00

I had one hell of a weekend.
Saturday was my PTM.
Mr. J told my dad that i need more self-motivation.
He says I'm doing things because i have to not that i want to.
What does he expects?
It's homework and studying we're talking about.
I won't go,
"I have 10 million tons of homework. I'M SO BLOODY EXCITED TO DO IT."
My dad didn't get angry with me,
but he did ground me for the march holidays.
However, knowing me, I'll try to wiggle my way out of it.
As if it is not torture enough,
he brought me to my godparents' house and let them lecture me also.
2 bloody hours okay.
Then godpa got me to do a schedule for myself.
But even the schedule that i gave him seems slack.
I think he's gonna scold me.

Sunday i went for Azriel's gig at Robertson walk with Kenneth Tan.
And so, i invited Joel and he invited Matthew Shep.
Isn't Robertson walk a place in Clarke Quay?
Therefore, I'm not totally wrong and i didn't give ya'll the wrong information okay!
Azriel's band is good man.
Although the band's name is a bit of a screw up.
But ya'll did a great job!
Too bad it was raining.
Didn't have that proper atmosphere.
Oh and we saw Adrian Pang!
We waved at him all. Haha.
His Caucasian wife looks like Drew Barrymore.
We walked to peninsula from Muhammad Sultan road WHICH IS ALSO IN CLARKE QUAY!
It was quite a long, wet walk.
Matthew is seriously crazy.
Knowing how I'm such a road hazard, he still make me cross the highway.
Yesterday was the most fun i had in ages man.
However, there's a price to pay for going out with a group of guys.
They made fun of me like mad boy.
All the short, tomboy, china jokes came out.
Idiots.
Reminds me of the good old past.
But i should stick to going out with a bunch of girls.
Embrace my girlish side.
Haha.

let's make a new start.

2009-03-10T16:50:00.003+08:00

I ought to kill Cherie for posting cacat videos of me on Facebook.
But too bad there wasn't the one where Rima won me in arm wrestling.
I want to announce to her Indonesia friends how man SHE really is.
Payback time baby.
HAHAHA.

School these past few days have been so insane man.
Joel's mad genes is contagious.
My mom warn me about people like you. Haha.
And it's also because Rima and Cecilia retarded behaviour adds to the whole insanity atmosphere.
Plus, i have friends like Delicia, Cassan, Farah and Cherie.
Not one day has my ears had ever any rest.
But without them, I'm not used to the peace and quiet.

PARENT-TEACHER MEETING THIS SATURDAY.
They are giving us back our results slips on that day.
My parents didn't even know i had my CAs.
And my oh so 'fantastic' results just screams, "OH MY GOSH, I SUCK."
So i've got first in class for Biology. Big deal.
Does me no dang good if the rest of my subjects all look like they've commited suicide.
I'm dead.
No wait, my dad is not going to let me die so easily.
My father believes in slow torture.
I can predict my own punishment.
Grounded for life.

I think i know where i got my retarded genes from.
My mom. For sure.
Maybe i should ask HER to go for my parent-teacher meeting session on saturday.
She just sits there and act like she knows what my teacher is tlaking about.
ANYWAY,
Her room is under some kind of renovation.
Then she just had to come to my room and sleep.
And i needed to use the laptop.
So i was going in and out of my room.
Then my mom complaint like the old auntie she is that i am noisy
and proceeds to chasing me out of my own room.
Injustice.
Next time I'm going to chase you out of your room too for being noisy. Haha.

F&N is killing me. Ugh.

You get older and blame turns to shame.

2009-03-01T20:27:00.002+08:00

I'm really hooked onto Facebook man.
I can spend how many hours on it man.
It's killing my studying time.
Dang it.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MARCUS HO AND AJ SHEPHERDSON!
Although you 2 will never come across this blog.
Hahaha.

So, it's already the starting of lent and i decided to give up 3 things.
-Profanities
-Talking on the phone unnecessarily for hours
-Losing my temper

Let's see if i can do it. Haha.

Okay, i have no mood to blog.

O lord, you have been our hope, you have been our refuge.

2009-02-22T16:22:00.002+08:00

I never felt so okay wearing a skirt, standing in front of 2 guys on the MRT before.
Well, it's only because they were GAY! Haha.
Oh, and I'm not assuming.
They are gay.
They kept touching each other all.
Then the auntie beside them gave the very "stupid gay piece of shit" face.
But i kept wanting to laugh.
Cos it was just so amusing and they don't even look gay at all.
Interesting huh.

Yesterday i really had a full meal with Jude and his family man.
They had salad, soup, steak with lamb and beef liver.
Oh, and red wine. Not forgetting the desert after that.
What a dinner.
Very nice bunch of people really.
Thanks for having me for dinner again (:
I really enjoyed it.

Do i really look that young?
You would think that being in the church choir since primary 5
would let the choir members realise how old i am, but unfortunately not.
Just today, two of my choir members asked me,
"How old are you now ah? Sec 3 ah?"
Then they went on saying how i still look very baby-ish.
So i told Russell,
"You see Russ, I'm somewhat like Benjamin Button. Instead of growing older, I'm just not growing at all."
Last year I'm sec 3 this year I'm also sec 3.
And i just wanted to point out one more thing.
Stupid Justin. Caused me to go for lunch alone. Haha.
Kidding ah babe.

Got to go do my bloody F&N coursework now. Ugh.

I really shouldn't miss you.

2009-02-18T19:29:00.004+08:00

Okay, so now i can blog about valentine's day.

Here's what happened...

So, met Rima and we were on our way to Shu si's house.

By the way, it was the first day of my 'thing'.

This is where hell started for me.

TA-DAH! Dying from cramps on Shu si's carpet.

Shu si gave me pain killers and all that.

I was out cold not long after this picture.

So yeah, they had all the fun without me.

Look how happy they are.

Stupid cramps.

After regaining consciousness.

Rima, Cecilia and I left Shu si's place to meet Claudine and Joanne at Fish&Co.

This is my resurrection.

Apparently, we were very late.

Took a cab down and here we are at Fish&Co.

But yeah, still have to wait 10 years for Delicia, Farah and Jedelin to come.

When they arrived,

we finally got to order.

Everything that day was for couples only.

So, i was Rima's valentine's date.

Shared the seafood platter for 2 with her.

Okay, the only group photo we took is this one.

Right before we ate.

Rima and i couldn't finish our seafood platter.

Can you believe that?

And we are pure gluttons.

But you should have seen how much Claudine and Jedelin had left.

If i was not bloated i would have helped them finish theirs.

So, after dinner, took a photo outside Fish&Co.

You have no idea how fussy this Rima is.

MUST take outside Fish&Co. cos of the lightning.

Rima, Rima...

Decided to walk to Orchard from Plaza Sing.

So, camwhore while we're on our way there.

But after many stupid attempts to take retarded pictures.

Joanne, Farah and Delicia left first.

So, Jed, Claudine, Rima, Cecilia and I,

decided to continue walking to Orchard by ourselves.

As usual, Rima and her obsession with taking pictures. Haha.

We walked too fast and loses Claudine, Jed and Cecilia behind us.

So, we're just resting here.

Oh yeah, after this picture, we got chased out of a bar.

Hahaha.

Our 'date' finally came to a close and this is one of the last pictures we took.

Rima made me rush back home after this.

I only reached home at about 12.30am.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TEO SHU SI!
Hope you like your Ipod Classic we got you.
Well, you better.
Cos, it caused me to be broke. Hahaha.
However, it was worth it.
The look on your face was simply, PRICELESS.

Move along.

2009-02-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

Valentine's day with Cecilia, Claudine, Jedelin, Farah, Rima, Joanne and Delicia was a blast!
Making it my best V'day ever! Thanks babes!
I love ya'll this much [stretched arms horizontally].
Hahaha.
Shall go into details some other time when Rima send me the photos
and also because i want to sleep.

Poor Jude broke his wrist.
He just told me his gruesome story about his experience.
Saying his hand bone structure was like the letter 'S' all.
So, pray for him.

Pray for me too.
For mental healing.
Let my mind be at peace.
Been thinking too much nowadays.
I think i need to make myself disappear for awhile.
Need some alone time to reflect on life.
Tomorrow onwards is my CA week.
S.T.R.E.S.S.
So, yeah. Pray for me.

I will pray for all my love ones.
May all of you be blessed with happiness and be strong in life.
Amen.

Goodnight world and all who inherit it (:

Leaving it all to fate.